This blog is in honor of my Mother, Rita, who stuck with me through all the hard times in my life.
Some people has a straight and narrow road and then there is the addicted. For them there are many wingding roads with many curves and many forks in the road. Not only that but they also have Satan with a bullhorn screaming at you every step you take. That is what the people with eating disorders, drug addictions, alcoholism, shopaholics, self-mutilation, junkaholic (junk food addict) chocohalic (chocolate addiction), and the choking game. I have and had almost all of these addictions except for alcoholism. I'm never fully recovered. There is never any recovered you are only recovering and you will be for the rest of your life. 
I still deal the a active addicions with junkaholism, chocohalic and a weard form of eating disorder that I'm doing everything possible to change that. Instead of sitting around being sorry I have tossed myself into change. This change has been needed for a while and for now I'm winning. I'm not going to let satan win. I will fight him with every last breath I have in my body.
God is wonderful. Satan on the other hand is a lier. He lies about everything. He wants you to take that drug or cut yourself or make yourself vomit, or drink that last drink that always is the last drink. He is evil through and through. 
On the other hand God loves you so much. He wants you to come to know him. He wants you to be close to him. He wants you to let all your worries and cares to give it up to him. He don't want you to take that drink, or drug, or cut yourself or force yourself to throw up.
For goodness sakes God's only son died for you and me. For that sacrifice we who believes will be saved and will live forever. He died in a way a criminal even though he didn't do anything. He did that for our sins. He never stole, did drugs, drank, hurt himself in ay way or hurt anyone else in any way. He died on that cross, a death penalty for us. All of this for us.
All we have to do is beileve and try our hardest not to sin. God don't expect us to be perfect. The only one who was ever perfect on this earth died on the cross. Jesus himself.
I found out about him after getting into drugs, other eating disorders, self-mutilation, and the choking game. In and out of the hospitals mentel and regular. Doing these things over and over again. I hurt my body and I'm still paying for some of it even today.
Then after my Mom having many years of prayer I found God. I stopped everything I said I did and I'm working what I'm still fighting with. Finding God my life will never be the same. He is been the Father that I always wanted and needed when my Father and God-Father abuse me and didn't love me anyone. 
God can change your life too if you pray this simple prayer:God I am a sinner. I believe Jesus died for me. Jesus save me from my sinful self. God I need you in my life for the rest of my life. In Jesus Name AMEN!
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!! 
